not random

my bathroom is being torn apart today - the ceiling being pulled down and new dry wall eventually replacing it. i've moved everything out of that room except the shower curtains and toilet cleaner, which are both stored (at a safe distance from each other) in the under-sink cabinet. oh, and i've left the ice cream tub which collects the water dripping from the hole in the ceiling. this all started with one problem but led us to three distinct problems - two leaks and a clog - all affecting my bathroom.

i've been looking through photos from camp rainbow . . . man, it was four years ago that i worked there. summer of 2001. fraggle taught me some lessons . . . wow. the kids, too. and i met this guy who, despite his slight clumsiness, i continue to value as among my closest friends (it's easier when i'm several provinces away and he can't spill my mac'n'cheese all over the dirt). anyway, God was teaching me about trusting Him and making Him all and serving 24/7 and all that. then, during week 5 - early august - as so many of you know, i got the toughest news i've ever had to face. within a month, i was no longer living with my parents. that summer was a huge turning point in my life.


as far as i can gather, that's the last photo i have of myself before my world changed forever.

so much was going on that i didn't know about. i mean, HUGE things were going on behind the scenes. i couldn't have known when i showed up at jackson's point, as we drove up to madawaska, as we prepped, as we wept and prayed, as we ministered and loved, that the summer would end the way it did. if i'd known, i would probably have been useless to God. i mean, a mess.

so, i wonder, what's going on now that we don't see . . . what's going on that we'll only find out about weeks or months or years from now?

"sometimes God doesn't tell you His plan because you wouldn't believe Him anyway" . . . pine lake 2003