please be advised: withdrawal symptoms imminent

my parents' computer doesn't like blogger for some reason, so my posts may be few and far between over the summer, unless i regularly commandeer my sissy's laptop or actually make it to the uoft campus with some frequency.

we suffer together: i can't bring myself to write any meaningful notes on facebook and, while i'm beginning to journal on paper again, that's just not the same. i miss this place. but let us shed no tears, friends. sometimes silence is best.

or, in other words, sometimes resignation to the realities of which you disapprove is wiser that kicking against the undaunted and impenetrable totalitarianism that is computer goofiness.

i've recently been learning...

1. it will never be the same again
2. no matter which beach boys' song i start out singing, i end up with "(i wish they all could be) california girls"
3. "if i stand at all, it is certainly not alone"
4. being brave feels good (after the peeing-your-pants thing is done)
5. i am deeply loved and kinda needed
6. it's not about me
7. God really wants to be known... He is the "one who has waited long for you to speak" (the horse and his boy)
8. just because everyone seems to see you a certain way doesn't mean it's true
9. the way i deal with life is fundamentally flawed
10. my family is often very, very difficult... but somehow it can be beautiful
11. sometimes it is about me
12. every story is everyone's story, somehow
13. for the record, we still can't get through mother's day without my mom crying
14. if everyone seems to see you in a certain way, you should consider that it might be true
15. no one is indispensable
16. x hours of anything-other-than-sleep = 0 hours of sleep, no matter how restful you think the other thing might be
17. most friendships don't end... they just change
18. my mom may be difficult, but i don't always have to be selfish and sensitive
19. i didn't miss provincial sales tax
20. i already miss being driven home and sitting in the parking lot for hours
21. there is no formula. ever. ok, i'll give you the quadratic formula... but it prolly won't help so much.
22. it's never too late to be loving
23. "being miserable doesn't make you better than anyone else... it just makes you miserable" (house)
24. no one is replaceable (sorry, beyonce)
25. if God isn't ok with swearing, i am in so much trouble... because:
26. sometimes the only words i have are ones i only really trust Him to tolerate and understand
27. trajectory is so, so important. (i guess i need to take the derivative to find the slope of the tangent to the curve at this particular moment... oh, wait: no formuale.)
28. "every tear i've cried, You hold in Your hand" (casting crowns)
29. what i want most is home
30. listen
31. it will never be the same again

updater-oo

in: toronto
with: a sore back
with: 100% of my belongings
without: my degree
with: hope for getting the above soon
with: family!

also coming soon: a comprehensive - but not exhaustive - list of thanks and recent lessons!

watch this space!

winter quotables 2007

i never realized how good looking you were until i met your family!
~michelle

you should invent a teleporting machine... well, you did ask people to give you advice for what to do next!
~kevin

mara: he had good looks... lots of good looks...
deniss: aaaall over his face!

i don't eat ice cream because it's good for me.
~darcy

mara: he cried yesterday.
ross: that's 'cause he's a man.
mara in her head: i love that we both know that's not at all sarcastic.

nooo waaaaaaaaaaay!
~exclaimed by jen repeatedly, as she discovers the wonders of facebook

i don't know very many wise people who quit.
~brett

the bible is trying to move people from a deeply unjust context to a profound equality.
~mara

we can't even imagine the hope we have.
~steve

i've experienced world peace... it's worth it! we should bring it to this planet!
~michelle

mara: we can pretend to be married.
ross: we totally can. i just have to take mara for granted more.

no, steve isn't a good guy because he's my friend.
~ross

life is short; why live in the snow?
~dr. knudtson

ah, gregory of nyssa... great guy... great poet... a bit of a whiner, though.
~dr. mealey

that's so WRONG-AH!
~jen, making fun of my hard g's

little children will suffer if you don't take care of yourself.
~jen

he is as spiritual as a chair.
~deniss

there is beauty in the world even when my bus is late.
~mara

mara, you should have married my wife.
~kevin

that saint francis, he had his ducks in a row... literally.
~jen

it's not me; it's us.
~kristin

what kind of girl are you?! you have no power of manipulation!
~steve

oh, you're soft... and sparkly! you are everything i like.
~faith

those who don't have time to study call themselves "biblical Christians."
~prof. hyatt

i will fight brian mclaren in a steel cage.
~ross

why is satan so good in bed? i'd think he'd be really inconsiderate.
~steve

i'm not sad, i'm complicated. chicks dig it.
~house