... i don't always have a lot of faith in myself. it's not my abilities (in the abstract sense) that i question, but my trustworthiness with deadlines. i don't know if it's laziness or fear or sheer overwhelmedness... probably a combination of all three.
someone - maybe dr. phil - said that just as you stop trusting people when they keep failing you, you also lose trust in yourself if you keep making promises you don't keep. i'm very bad at being disciplined. i shouldn't even be blogging right now.
but, come hell or high water, my first complete draft is due in ten days. i always say things will get done on time "because they have to." but, really, *i* should get them done because *i* have to. this isn't my thesis' responsibility, but mine. and it's a really daunting responsibility, in terms of its scope and volume and significance.
i'm at the 36,000 word mark.
i know all things are possible.
i know that i have the data.
i know that i can write.
i know that this is important.
and i know that no one is going to do it for me.
i want to have reason to trust myself again.
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I find that once I stop trusting other people, I have to stop trusting myself - and vice versa - because I am not all that different than everyone else...
Good luck! I believe you can do it!
i mean more that i stop trusting particular people with particular things - not generic distrust of everyone. so, for instance, if someone keeeeps saying she'll bring a book that you asked to borrow, but never does, you just stop trusting that she'll make good on those sorts of offers. it doesn't mean she's evil, just that she's not dependable in that arena.
i still trust myself with a lot of things. just not deadlines, so much.
but thanks for your vote of confidence!
Dr. Phil is an idiot. Everyone goes through that time where you crash. Just have some ice cream, take a nap and keep at it. You'll be fine.
i think he's not an idiot so much as unoriginal. he says things that are intuitively obvious, but which people think are deeply insightful. :)
Get off the computer and work on your paper!!!
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